Secret Love|Hawkpaw and Rainpaw

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Rainpaw started toward the apprentices den and waited for Hawkpaw to come so they could rest together or talk.She waited and waited then soon she wanted to look for him then she saw him come in.Rainpaw waited for Hawkpaw to come and sit next to her and she could lick him gentle ad then they would both rest.

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Hawkpaw ran into the apprentice den after Rainpaw. He saw her waiting for him and layed down next to her. He nuzzled her face and hoped no other cat would come in and see them. He actually didn't really care about that. No cat was going to stop him from being with Rainpaw. No cat could end them. Ever. Not even StarClan could stop him. He hoped she felt the same way. He wondered if they could have kits before they became warriors. Or could they at least make them? They probably wouldn't be born until they became warriors if they did. He sat there grooming her fur and waited for her to do something.

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Rainpaw licked Hawkpaw with her gentle licks then she felt a pang of sorrow that they both couldn't have kits until they were warriors and were given their warrior names.She knew if they had kits when they are apprentices they could be strickly forbidden to go to gatherings or even worse baned from the clan forever.Rainpaw kept licking and then soon noticed that she was licking a little too hard, she stopped and then mewed, Have you thought about having kits and then soon if we weren't made into apprentices we would be well forbidden to go to gatherings but what if we did have kits of cousre we would have to talk to Firestar for the yes she would give us.It would be worth it but still the kits would have to wait until we were warriors to be safe about it.Why not we talk to Firestar and see when we are going to be made into warriors.Rainpaw took a breath before padding out of hte den and headed fr Firestar's den where Hawkpaw and Rainpaw would find out when they would come into warriors.Rainpaw stopped then turned back remembering until Ravenwhisker got back from the warrior mission she was on she wouldn't, they wouldn't be made into warriors because Ravenwhisker hadn't told Firestar the grade on the hunting test they had.She returned to the den and sat next to Hawkpaw and then felt a hunger pain in her stomach.Rainpaw ignored it and licked Hawkpaw and then laid her head down to rest.

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Yeah, I've thought about it. Can they really stop us from doing what we want? I mean, they can't control us. Our lives are our own. No other cat can change that. Hawkpaw said, not believeing that he did. He was starting to rebel. He believed in StarClan and the Warrior Code but he thought it was too strict. Another cat should not tell a different cat what to do. Cats shouldn't be told when they could have kits or not. And cats should definitly not have to listen when they did one of those things wrong. Hawkpaw accidently growled at the thought of having other cats tell him what to do.

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Rainpaw looked at him then mewed, Yeah thinking no other cat in our cat history has a cat refused to well not follow orders well there was one cat, Fireheart well Firestar I guess but remember the tale the elders told us.Firestar was a very noble cat and his old leader, Bluestar, was confused and was against the warrior code and Starclan.I remember one of hte elders told me that Fireheart went behind his leaders back and made peace instead of battle which Bluestar wanted to do.Fireheart was brave but still he was deputy we are only apprentices, how can we pull it off with out getting caught?Rainpaw thought and thought, the n she remembered the tale of a Riverclan she cat and a Thunderclan warrior and how they loved each other and that they weren't pulled apart by their clans instead they were pulled apart of death but it was Starclan did that because they were against the warrior code too much.Then Rainpaw mewed, Hey me and you are both Windclan apprentices and we are probably going to be warriors soon we can at least make them but we would have to hide the kits until you and me are warriors then we would tell everyone that we are mates and that we had kits when we went out together.But I forgot my belly would swollen up and every cat would find out.How would we pull it off!

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Yes, Firestar was the one that went behind Bluestar's back. But what he did saved many cats' lives. And the other cat was...Graystripe! And who was his RiverClan mate? Oh, Silverstream. They had kits but she died because StarClan made her. They didn't like what they had done so they severely punished them. That is rediculous. You never know, if we had kits and got punished for it, the kits could grow up and find a way to get rid of the twoleg monsters running cats over on the Thunderpath! Then how would they feel? They would probably think of themselves as fox-dung! Hawkpaw said. He thought for a few moments and then said, Maybe we shouldn't. StarClan could punish us. Maybe they would go as far as...killing you? I wouldn't be able to bear that. Maybe they are listening to us right now. Maybe this will change their minds about some of the rules that they have for us?Hawkpaw nuzzled Rainpaw's cheek. He thought, If I lost her, what else would I have to live for? I wouldn't be complete. Even if she had the kits before she died, it would never be the same. Kits need both their parents to see the whole world. It would be different without one of them. He snapped out of thinking like that and said, As for the hiding it, you wouldn't have to tell any cat. Maybe we will become warriors before your belly starts to swell. If we had to cover it, you could stay in here most of the time. Or if you wanted to get out you could come with me hunting or something. I could walk next to you so no other cat could tell that you were going to be bearing kits. But when we go for the ceremony, it will be known. Maybe you could tell them that you had been taking too much fresh-kill? The consequences would probably be far less then if we got caught having kits. But, the question is, Do you really want kits? Its all up to you. Hawkpaw finished and noticed he was looking strait into her eyes. He thought they were beautiful. He stayed there waiting for her to speak.

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Rainpaw looked at Hawkpaw then said, of course I want kits!But to be safe from me dying during birth we can wait until we are warriors.Even it will be soon that we will have a silent vigil after our ceremony but of course we have to wait until Ravenwhisker gets back from her warrior trip to give the imformation to Firestar so she can well make us warriors.Rainpaw laid her head down and started to rest her eyes for in return strength and energy.

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Yeah Hawkpaw simply said. He layed his head down softly next to Rainpaw's. His eyes slowly closed and he fell into a deep sleep. He had no dreams that night. All he saw was black. Wait...he saw something small. Two icey blue eyes. Help me... Were the words that came with the eyes. He didn't know many cats with blue eyes. Only a few...and not many were in his own clan. The eyes left and he tried to tell them to stay but he couldn't. They had already gone.

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Rainpaw felt Hawkpaw move in his sleep and said softly and comforting, Hawkpaw what's wrong?She licked the water off his fur and kept licking waiting for HAwkpaw to wake up from his weird sleep.

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Ravenwhisker entered the apprentices den. It was dawn and the morning sun was creeping over the highlands. Rainpaw, wake him up, it's time for your last assessment, fighting! Her gaze was stern. You must remember to stay in line, she said looking over to the sleeping Hawkpaw. Apprentices cannot have kits. You wlil be a warrior as soon as I assess your fighting and tell Firestar. Not that I have any doubts that yoiu will. AS long as you don't break any rules. Her hackles had raised slightly at the site she had walked into, but she forced herself to relax Rainpaw was a sensible young cat, she would put some sense into Hawkpaw.

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Hawkpaw had woken up just before Ravenwhisker came in. How did she hear us? He said under his breath. Who said we were going to have kits? Hawkpaw spat. At this point, he didn't really care if he got into trouble for talking to Ravenwhisker like he did. He stalked out of the apprentice den, brushing past Ravenwhisker, and watched the entrance with a scowl.

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Ravenwhisker spat back. It's obvious that you two are infatuated with each other. I knew because of the guilty way you looked at me after I came in. My sister was very much like you. But she's DEAD now!Starclan was angry with her, for she had had kits as an apprentice, right before she was going to become a warrior. All her kits died with her........ Ravenwhiskers voice trailed off, chocked with emotion. She had to remember not to snap at the apprentices in her anger. She trembled slightly at the site from her nightmares flooded back to her
A young white she cat with black spots lay in the nursery, no more than an apprentice. Her heavily swollen belly was soaked in bood. She tried to push, but the kits wouldn't come out. The strain proved to much and blood vessels in her head broke. Her brain was bleeding, and she died. Ravenwhisker stood watching, her sister dead on the ground. She hadn't mentioned the father, but a warrior disappeared not long after, and many suspected he ran away in shame.
Ravenwhisker shook her head to clear the picture. Just, come wth me, you'll be warriors tomorow if all goes well tonight.

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Can't apprentices at least love without another cat arguing with them? Anyways, we were going to wait. Unlike the tom that your sister was with, I wouldn't risk Rainpaws life like that. Do you honestly think i'm that mouse-brained? Hawkpaw said calmly, to show that he could control himself and actlike a warrior, from outside the apprentice den. As he waited for the she-cats to come, he thought about the dream that he had. Those eyes...Whos eyes were they? I havn't seen them before. It must be a cat in some clan. Why would StarClan tell me about them if they weren't in a clan? He realized that he had said that aloud and then thought, Maybe I will see it at the next gathering. I have to make sure I keep my eyes open.

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Rainpaw came out of the apprentices den her eyes gleaming in the sun, her icy blue eyes were staring at Hawkpaw both were fulled of love and proudness because he wouldn't want to risk her life for kits.She came up and then looked at Ravenwhisker hoping that she would come soon to do the test.Rainpaw then got bored and looked at Hawkpaw again hoping that they would be warriors soon.
((Whos icy blue eyes were their in his dream!!Are they Rainpaws??))

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Hawkpaw gasped as he looked into Rainpaw's eyes. They looked like the ones in his dream. He was determined not to believe that they were hers. Maybe they were...StarClan could have sent him the message not to have kits yet. That could have been her 'help me' if he hadn't been careful. He sat down next to Rainpaw and continued to wait for Ravenwhisker to start their test.